I have it. Big time.
What exactly is new mommy brain, you may ask? Believe me, it’s not simply an excuse for absent-mindedness – it’s real! I’m forgetful, unable to focus on any given task for longer than 1.5 minutes, and am pretty much useless when it comes to doing anything requiring… well, brain. ;-)
Here’s how UrbanDictionary.com defines Mommy Brain (it totally fits):
Mommy Brain – The phenomenon known to mothers where their brains become useless piles of goo after being around their children for too long.
Sooooooooooo true, right? I’m especially fond of the phrase “useless pile of goo” since that pretty much sums up the way my brain feels when I try to focus on something other than my sweet bundle of joy.
It seems like all I can think about is baby, baby, baby. My head is full of feedings, diaper changes, pediatrician appointments, cleaning up spit-up, laundry that needs to be done, naps that I wish I could fit in, and things that need to be put away. Even when he’s sleeping I’m unable to rest completely knowing that any minute he might start crying and I will need to do something for him.
Plus he’s cute, soft, smells wonderful, and I can’t help but want to do something for him. :)
So perhaps in a way I’m enjoying this crazy feeling?
Still, I would like to be able to think about something else once in awhile.
My email inbox and blog have both been suffering mildly thanks to this. I sit down and can’t seem to focus on what I’m writing about. I keep starring emails I need to respond to because I don’t know if I can formulate a good response at that moment. Things just haven’t settled down yet – even though it’s been a month already. When you’re nursing on demand and getting used to having two demanding children rather than just one, it truly is a challenge getting back into the swing of things.
And I’m tired. I’m still being awakened 3-4 times every night and it’s taking it’s toll. You should see my dark circles. I look like zombie mommy. Maybe I’ll post a picture later just for fun (or to scare you).
I am starting to feel like we’re getting into a better routine, though. I’m adjusting to the fact that I had to cut out caffeine (SO sad and withdrawal symptoms have been awful), finally finding the energy to get my house back in shape (GRADUALLY), and am just generally slowly feeling like things are coming together.
So how do we battle this mommy brain? I think time and rest is going to be the only thing that helps. I know it would be good to get out once in awhile but it’s too cold to go outside just for fun or to get away and I’m honestly too tired. I sure can’t wait for warm summer weather so I can go sit outside on the grass and soak in the sun!